For some reason, I’m watching the final episode of MASH now. I felt like I needed to use the toilet, I feel down and my pants are wet. I’m worried for a moment, and then I remember that I washed some clothes earlier and the wetness is from washing them in the sink. I’ve only pissed myself once in public; I was lucky enough that only my girlfriend saw me before I went to change. It was embarrassing, yes. She looked at me (no one else saw me,) gave me a worried look, didn’t follow me to the bedroom, and then smiled when I came back out calm and clean. My moments of weakness seem to have always been coupled with moments of strength and love.