I just tried to call someone. A woman…. (Female is merely animal and girl doesn’t fit with my liberal education.) I want to move near her, and in my weaker moments move with her. I need a friend now and I reach for my closest (physically) friend. I suppose that this is my weakness. She said that I would only move near her if a woman showed up, took me by the hand, and moved with me. She might be right; I need the strength of another. A modicum of safety and stability here in my own space has made me both secure in my own, recent, sphere and terrified at leaving my close quarters. Yet I must leave. At my weakest, I need to move with her; at my most confidant I need to pack and move.

This post is more for me than you. I’m trying to work through things as well as communicate.

"Push that
push that
push that
up your wall"

I'm sorry for not updating; I'm recovering from my trip and struggling. I hope to talk to you all and visit some of you soon. Check back soon, I will write more, I promise.

Back online.

Geh, called cable company to pay bill today, modem should be up soon.

Cable got turned off so I'm gonna be quiet for a while.